It’s a great day to love myself

Open Letter To The Best Friend I Lost

I’ve made many mistakes in my life. I’ve been a horrible friend, said and did many things I wish I could take back. To those I have hurt and lost a long the way, this letter is for you. I wish I could take back the angry words I said to you over and over again because I was hurting. I wish I could take back how I betrayed you when you needed me most. You will never know how much I beat myself up over it. You deserved a much better friend than you got in me. I just wish you were able to see the person I am today. How I’m really not the same person. I know, it really seemed like (and still does) that I was just an attention seeker. And, I know, on some level I really was. I was searching for love and affection that I never got anywhere else. And it will always be a life-long battle. I wish you could see the person I am today. How I am an advocate for abuse survivors and mental health fighters. If you could see who I am almost 10 years later, I think you would be surprised. Losing yo...

Personal Achievement Award

It’s hard to believe that about 7 years ago I began my temporary job trial at the Library. At this point in my life I could barely handle doing just short 2 to 3 hour shifts. The library was a perfect fit for me. It was quiet and the work just worked with my personality. I remember as a kid, playing library in my room at home with my small book collection. I never really realized it was my dream job until I was given the opportunity to learn more about the job and it was such a dream come true to get the job as a Page and later be able to move up to Library Assistant. Often times I don’t feel worthy of good things or that I’m somehow less of a person because I have learning differences and depression & anxiety. I’m very thankful to ODC and all the wonderful people that I work with at the library. They’ve always believed in me and I’m finally starting to believe in myself. I’m really honored and excited to be awarded the 2017 Achievement Award. I know I have struggled a lot, and ...

Welcome to Hell - My Thoughts On Mental Health Issues

I wanted to write a blog post on what it’s like to live with multiple mental health issues. Please note: could possibly trigger. Please read with caution. Welcome to hell . I was introduced to this hell as a 14 year old. I literally fought for my life though, depression, anxiety, suicide attempts etc and I won the war. However, mental health issues are something I’ll struggle with for the rest of my life. I can take my medication and practice my DBT skills and I can live a pretty successful life, but these demons, these monsters will always be a part of my life. I’ll always have to fight them off, fight to see the light. And, I can be okay with this because I’ve accepted that this is who I am and I’ve discovered how I can use the bad for the good. So, here I am - perfectly flawed. I want to give you a brief insight into a typical day of mine (this is with doing treatments, medication, therapy, self care) Depression. I have this all year round but it intensifies once the wint...

Finding Katie Marie

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